THROAT

I came to his door
I rang the bell
It was my heart
That was looking for him
My soul burning deep inside
I knew I had to come here this night


I'd bundled a picnik
So we could be with it
And have a good chat
About this and that
And a bottle of wine
To loosen our tongues
Cause we were shy
My heart beat so much I wanted to die
I thought about the other day
Whilst waiting
And hoped he'd heard the bell

My thoughts went to when
He stood by his kitchen door
Whilst I picked up something from the floor
Yet I felt him stare at me
A boyish smile, almost a grin
Dimple in chin
When I looked at him
Right to left big smile
Sparkles in his eyes
He sure looked in love
He even blushed
His eyes not leaving mine for once
He put me in trance
I knew I was lost
I had no chance

Beyond my imagination what was to come
It was because I was blindly in love
My thoughts went back to all the moments we'd had
So picnik in hand
I rang the bell again then

Still waiting I stood
I thought about
The nights that I danced
Alone for him
Cause he loved to watch
Around me half covered
With a beautiful cloth
Of softest silk just around my hips
It send him off on a dreaming trip

I rang again
Then I heard his steps
He swung open the door
My heart beating hard
Just right to my throat
It was always like that
He got my heart racing mad

I thought he'd be happy to see me here
Instead I felt a sting where he slapped my face
For whatever reason
I will never guess
Then he grabbed my throat
Pulled me inside
Almost killed me
Until I heard an other mans voice
Calling him "Hey stop this fight!"
So then I got away with a fright

But upon this day I will never know
What made him do this
Why he lost his temper
After all I came just to supper
I had wanted to see him
Had wanted to talk
Had wanted to laugh
As we usually did
Shyly kid around a bit

It was last year and time has passed
My wounds have healed
And the shock did not last
But he ran away
Did not want to say
What made him do what he did that day

Yet ten days ago
After all this time
He sent me kiss
To my BlackBerry
God knows why he did this
Maybe his way to tell me
How sorry he is
I wonder if I will ever know
Yet the kiss came at me like a silent blow
And all the old thoughts have began to flow
A nothing but maybe a CRY from him
I don't know
I feel that his soul troubles him so
And I wish I could rock him in my arms
And tell him that I am no more mad
That I forgive all damage that was done
Forever and all the days to come

Yet still he can't bear to come and see
But maybe one day he will talk to me
He has to free himself from the guilt
That holds him still
It's going to need all his Will
But I'll be there to listen
When he's ready to say

"I'm sorry for what I did that day!"

If ever a love was really true
I know that his and mine was so
I am no Judge and I don't sit in Court
All we really need is to have a word
I will forgive you
Cause I do see your worth

PoeDes©